AMAZING GOD

I wanted to share this with all of you in hopes that it will be an encouragement for you to never give in or give up.

Last week was a very hard week for me. I began getting sick again on Sunday with the same symptoms that sent me to the hospital twice last fall. This time, I already had everything to start taking so I didn't have to go to the Dr. or hospital and I could get a hold of it before it got bad.

I had already been feeling I was under more of an attack from satan for the last month. Last week proved it. On Thurs. I began having bad muscle spasms in my back. It was so bad that I couldn't breathe. It felt like someone had a hold of my back in a "death grip" and would not let go. I couldn't move. I couldn't talk. I was at one end of the house and my husband at the other. I couldn't yell for him to come help me. This lasted for about 45 minutes. I literally thought I was going to die. This was it or me. Finally my husband came to the door and he got me the oxygen and helped me what he could. It took about 2 hours before I could breathe again.

As I sat there debating on if to go to the hospital or not, I began to think about the last 2 years and all that God has brought me through. He has recently told me that this year He is putting me back into ministry, that I have been being prepared for. He has pretty much told me what I will be doing after a few more things are taken care of. Then it all made sense. The devil knows this too and he is trying to take me out. The muscle spasms have continued. Not quite as bad since I have been standing against them. I will not give in nor will I give up no matter how bad they may get. Because I know all this is about to pass.

On Thurs. nights, there is a program on the radio called "The Welcome Home Broadcast". I try to listen to it every week since I don't get out to midweek service or to church. It has been a blessing to me and has kept me going each week. It is my shot of the Holy Ghost that I need. Last Thurs. I only got to listen for a short time. This was all before the spasms. I hate it when I miss it but it is repeated over the weekend. On Sat. morning, I missed most of it again because I had a granddaughter here and couldn't listen to it. I was really feeling down and not feeling well physically either. I needed to hear from God in a desperate way after Thurs. night. About 15 minutes before the program went off the radio, I went into my bedroom where the radiuo was on. At that moment, Gary, the host of the show, put on the song, "In Christ Alone" sang by Michael English. He knows that is my favorite gospel singer. It was like God took me in there at the right time to hear that song and it spoke and encouraged me that Christ alone is my hope and strength. I had began to get my focus off Him by that time and He pulled me back to where I needed to be. Then that peace that passes understanding came all over me.

I sent an email to Gary and told him all this, and I thanked him for playing that song. He wrote back and said he didn't have that on his list to play but the Holy Spirit told him to play it for me at that time. So he was obedient and changed his program to follow the leading of the LORD. I am so glad that he did!!

No matter what you may be going through. No matter how bad it may look. God knows. You may not feel like He is with you. You may not feel like He even cares or hears you. I assure you that He does. Remember the poem, "Footprints In The Sand". It is through the hard times that He is carrying you!! Keep your focus on Him. Follow Him, don't try to lead Him. Stand firm on the Word. Stand and don't make a move until you hear His voice, then be obedient to what He says to do.

I heard one other thing this week. Hunt (I like to say seek, go after wholeheartedly) for the presence of God, no matter how long it takes, don't stop. Don't move or do anything until you are in the His presence. It is amazing then to see what God will do.

Have a great day in the Lord.